The Caterpillar Who Refused To become A Butterfly!
The mean little voice was driving him mad.
Cator, the little caterpillar wanted to shut this voice off, but it kept nagging him to become a butterfly. He felt helpless for a while, "Why am I going through this hell? Is there no way out of this grave situation?" And then, in utter desperation, he smacked his body on a wrinkled tree branch. Got bruised. Deeply. But he didn't stop. banged himself again on the scratchy tree. That disturbing voice was worse than the physical pain.
Cator was an ordinary caterpillar in an extraordinary situation.
The botanical garden was his heaven. Food was abundant. He chewed the fresh green leaves when he felt hungry. And then slept peacefully when he felt tired. Life was good. The comfortable life many human beings would pray for! But then, the mean little voice messed up everything.
That day, he was chewing a dark leaf. Though his stomach was full, the leaf was so juicy he kept gnawing at it. In that exact moment, he heard a faint voice, “Cator, listen carefully!” He looked around and saw no one. He cautiously turned his head to look back. No one was there either! He panicked, lost his balance and tumbled into a dense cluster of leaves.
It was so safe in that darkness. No prying eyes could find him there. No preying beaks could reach him now. He shrank himself and sat there for a long time. And then he heard the voice again, “"Cator! You have been a good caterpillar, now it's time for you to become a butterfly!” He was so afraid he closed his eyes, and realized, the voice was not out there, but echoing from his own body. It was not an ordinary voice but the divine order which turns all caterpillars into butterflies. They can't think these things out, so they simply follow the order. But, another quirky thing happened to Cator.
He began to think. He remembered the earlier ordeal when he was inside the egg – a tiny egg. No room to move around. Nothing to eat. After a few days he was so hungry he ate the egg-shell and came out. Memories swelled up...In those moments of deprivations, the hunger was so overpowering, he devoured the milkweed leaves he was lying on. That was a bad experience. The latex got stuck to his body and in his mouth. It was a struggle freeing himself from the leaves. Many of his brothers had died in that process.
The other day he heard a botany guide telling the students, “When a mother Monarch butterfly lays 120 eggs only about 1 survives”. He was the strong one, who survived. He truly earned the comfortable life. But the mean little voice was ordering him to go through another ordeal. Why should he follow the orders from nowhere?
As he was thinking things over, the voice returned. This time not alone but with future memories --The images of a colourful butterfly, flapping wings, and the open skies. But Cator began to imagine all the bad things that could happen to him. The voice told him to hang himself upside down. To leave himself at the mercy of unknown forces. To surrender to the mother nature.
He just couldn't entertain the idea. Hanging yourself upside down is not fun! And he knew, after he would hang himself, his inner parts would melt, divine forces would break him from inside and rebuild the butterfly in his body. Too much to ask from a little caterpillar! He shouted out loud, “No! No! No! I won’t hang myself upside down!”
It was a historic moment. The first Caterpillar ever to deny the divine forces.. In those moments of struggle, Cator realized, a strong shell was appearing and encapsulating him. It was the divine plan to protect him when he would be upside down. Cator felt helpless. In spite of his resolve not to become a butterfly, the divine forces were making him one. He stopped eating. Even the juicy dark leaves tasted bitter. He hit the branches with all his might to break the protective shell. He got hurt but shell did not disappear. Little Cator was angry. The pain and anguish was too much and the inner voices were making him mad. One night, he mustered all his strength and pulled the shell in. To his surprise, it got sucked in, and the shell created a shield inside him.
Suddenly, there was silence. Those alluring dreams and voices would remain inside the shell. And that was it. He remained a caterpillar forever. Ate more leaves. Lived the same life everyday. The life of sameness and comfort. And died peacefully. The legend has it that his soul passed through many other births. He became a fish, a pigeon, and a deer. And his inner protective shell remained intact. He never tried to become the best fish, the best pigeon or the best monkey he could become. He lived and died in his utter ordinariness. Again and again. And again.
Till one day, when he was in a human birth. He had a comfortable life, an easy career, a loving family. And he happened to read the story of the caterpillar who refused to become the butterfly. He felt pity for the poor caterpillar, and thought why he chose to live an ordinary life, while he could have become a beautiful butterfly. Why the poor creature crawled when he could have flown to distant lands? As he was sympathizing with the poor caterpillar, strong emotions swelled up in him. He began to reflect. He realized, Cator was him, the one reading the story! Still protecting himself from his own dreams, still living the ordinary life, still in his comfort zone.
As the Cator-man read on, the author said— Dear reader, you have 2 choices! You can once again forget the magic inside you. Or take a deep breath and tell yourself, the ordeal of becoming the true self is better than the ordeal of living the life of sameness, fearfulness and denying your dreams. It's your moment to realize your true potential!
Cator-Man took a deep breath! The story must take a new turn now!